For some odd reason an old blog post of mine went out tonight, please ignore it, not sure why that happened. I use Feedburner to send out my blog post but I think it is having a goofy night sending out old post. Hopefully that doesn’t happen again.

So here is my Awaking.

Today I have had a huge awakening. It is really hard to put into words, I might actually post a voice blog soon to discribe it, but it was huge.

My current journey has been more mental then physical. I have been making a lot of changes in how I think. I had to recently admit to myself that my perfectionist attitude, has to go, it has to. I tend to be very very very hard on myself. This isn’t a type of perfectionism where I expect perfection out of other people it’s more of I expect it out of myself. To some it might sound good that I try my best to do everything right but it is not very good being in this position. I am way to hard on myself.

Even writing this is scary because I think, will people think I have what it take to help them! To be honest I know I have what it takes to help people, this is only a small part of my journey, I have been through so much and I am so grateful to be where I am, even my husband said that he can see how I’ve changed over the years and that he believes that I will be able to help so many people. Most of you only know half of my life story, in the future I will share it in a book, whenever I feel it is the right time to write one, but I have come so far and it can only get better from here.

One thing I take away from all of this is that I will always be learning and growing, I can’t possibly believe that I can reach perfection and everything will be great, I will always need to work on me always. Even Louise Hay a best selling author says that she has to work on herself daily, and she has written several books on how to heal by changing how we think. So I have to remind myself that it is ok that I am not perfect and that I will be learning and growing for years to come, it’s ok.

Wow, I am so happy I can be real with my readers because that is who I like to be Real. I named my radio show Keeping It Real because I like to be real with people, and I plan to from here on out.. Watch out for me, this is only the beginning the real me is here to stay.

Now don’t get me wrong, I have never tried to write anything in my blog to mislead anyone, I probably just left somethings out, so I plan to try to give my all, everything with no editing, from here on out.. I said try because the perfectionist in me what to say I will do it(Exactly right) and right now I have to avoid those words(I will do it), it isn’t a good for me right now. I get into a lot of trouble saying those words. It’s not that I don’t want to make a commitment, it’s that I get very hard on myself to keep to those words in a way that is not healthy, so for now I will try my best.

If I plan to bless others I have to be willing to say what comes from my heart without editing things out. I bet I missed out on helping some of you because I took some things out, due to me trying to be perfect. It’s been a long personal battle.. and wow I can’t believe I am sharing this publicly. I think I may have mentioned it before but not to the extent that I have in this blog.

So I plan to try to share my all with you, and this change may not be overnight but overtime I will overcome it or have better control over it.

No one is perfect, no one, even the ones we feel are so great and so successful, they all have shortcomings.

Most people can’t even admit to not being perfect, it’s not easy to do, but I can’t be me unless I am real with you, I can only be me and only me.
I so welcome your comments, I would love to hear from you.

Tanisha Marshall - Raw Food Coach
http://www.tanishamarshall.com
http://www.keepitrealradioonline.com