I was thinking today about where I am at in this journey to finding myself and healing. I’ve reached a point where cooked cravings aren’t taking control of me and I have almost no problem passing up cooked foods without even thinking twice, but I still have the memory. Having the memory is not so bad that it make you want to eat cooked but it is there. At one point during this journey I was wondering if I’d ever be able to get over the smell of cooked food and today I can say I have a lot more control and it isn’t driving me crazy like it used to. I can’t say cooked food smells bad like some raw foodist say but it doesn’t make me want to eat it. Today I smelled some type of meat dish it smelled good but I thought it really isn’t good for me and I really don’t have a taste for that anyway and kept going. Before I got to this point I use to dream about it and try to find a way to get it but now I am calm about it. I remember it, I remember why I eat raw and I keep going.

I don’t think I’ll ever claim 100% I don’t want to live under that restraint and/or label, I love Natalia Rose’s thought process on eating, I don’t want people judging me by what I eat and yes people will judge you no matter what I know that, but the last thing I need is someone critquing me.  I don’t want life to be miserable because of how I eat. As I know and I hope you know that our environment play a huge role in how long we live as well as our diet. So once again please don’t get caught up on titles.

 At this point though I’ve been drinking green juices and some green smoothies, making some simple dishes and lots of different sprouts. I am really into having fruit as a lunch or dinner it’s really nice and refreshing. Yes I still make some gourmet I keep my options open.

There are so many stages that one goes through as they continue down the raw path. It’s a path of discovery and sometimes we hit a hard rock on the way and then sometimes it seems like wow how did I get here.

Today I felt for the first time like running, I’ve never been into running and before raw I really didn’t have enough air to run, but I feel like running and really enjoying the outside world, the one I avoided for so many years.

This year I look forward to experiencing something new, I am not sure what it is but I want to do more then stay in the house like I use to, I want to get out and enjoy life, I don’t think we should be couped up in the house all of the time and I know I need my Vitamin D.

Embrace every stage you go through as you go through this journey, at least that is what I try to do. I regret none of the choices that I made even the times when I ate things without a care. I see them as learning experiences which have molded me into who I am now.

Be patient and forgiving. Sometimes people can’t forgive themselves for mistakes they’ve made in the past but you can’t move on until you do. Be patient and allow the emotions to flow through you as long as it takes, don’t hold them back.

Have a wonderful raw day!!

Tanisha